The week is FINALLY over....

This has been the worst week of my working career...my new "babysitter" moved in...i discovered I have a lot of backstabbing, two faced people that i work with...people who will stop at nothing to make themselves look good and others look bad...to all of them, i say, shame on you...you just screwed yourself...for now on, i will do my job, and only my job, anything above and beyond that...not my problem, i dont get paid to do everyone else's job, hell, i dont get paid to do my job if you really think about it, at least not enough....i will be searching for a job, but will hang in here until that comes along, minding my own business....

the moral of the story, be careful who you trust, and who you talk to, sweet innocent looking people stab you the hardest...carry on carry on...

life will get better...no more worries over this place, if people arent going to look after you, why look after them...EVERY MAN FOR HIMSELF!!!!

So, a friend told me yesterday that i needed to have a picture of myself on my blog....here it is...dont you just love the resemblance...lol...

On a brighter note, today is a better day, still the same annoying people, but a little better attitude...i have learned that there is nothing a little alchohol cant make better...it is like a band aid for the soul...haha..not a lot, just enough to make you giggly and stupid, let go of all your worries...

So as the day passes, i think my good mood will wear off, but for now, i have let my feelings known, and she does not feel the need to stand at my desk and treat me like a 2 year old...life is good, or at least as good as it gets for now...

tootaloo for now!!

I am having like the worst possible day at work...i have to keep telling myself, i need my job, i love my job...why do things work out the way they do...i just want to cry...i cant stand this...when will God answer my prayers...

Back from vacation...it started off bad, but got much better at the end...let me begin...

we took our car to Sears to get an alignment and oil change before we left...this was at 1:00 pm...we told the mechanic we had to be out by 4:00 and figured we could get some shopping done while they had our car in...after the initial inspection we were told that the left front bering had gone bad in my car, and needed to be replaced...okay, i am driving through the mountains, can't afford to have a bad bering, change it, IF you can ge it done by 4:00...no problem rings in my ears...we were told it would take an hour and a half to get all of this work completed...after an hour and half past, the manager came out, said they received a bad bering it would be another hour and a half, no problem fix it, and lets go...after another two hours we were told that it was not the left side after all, the noise had traveled from the right side, so the right side needed to be changed...not only would it take another hour and a half, but they were going to charge us for the left side, because they replaced it and couldnt take it off...i dont think so...i proceed to get very angry...time is one thing, money is another...well...at 9:38, yes 8 hours and 38 minutes later, and many many shouting matches with the manager i was told that they could not fix my car...they realized at 9 pm they needed another part and all the part stores had closed at 9:00...it took them the 38 minutes to muster the courage to tell me they couldnt fix it...i had to call my inlaws 45 miles across town to pick me up at 9:38 pm...i lost my first night at my cabin...$150...i lost the fun day at dollywood we had planned for just our kids...priceless...all because a bunch of morons cannot pull a bering off and put it back on.... the next morning i come in and the third mechanic is working on my car...two and half hours later, we are off (and we did not pay for their mistake, but the rest of the money and time was lost, with only an apology, which does nothing for me). We get a mile down the road and realize the car is making an awful noise when you stop, assuming this was caused by cold brakes because the tire had been off all night, we figured it would stop, we wasted enough time, it was time to get on the road, after all there was a 6 hour drive ahead of us, and two other parties were meeting us there Thursday and noone could check into the cabin without me...it was in my name...we drove on, the more we used the brakes the worst the noise got...my car pulls worse now than it did when we drove it to sears...my luck totally... the rest of the vacation was a blast, family time, fun and games, we enjoyed the mountains, pigeon forge and gatlinburg. Went to an awesome haunted house, played lots of mini golf, saw shows, rode rides and ate lots of good food...well deserved and well worth the waite...wish i could have stayed longer, but all good things must come to an end...

Why do i have to cry so much?????

Well, after a conversation with a beloved friend, i realize, i am the reason my life is the way it is...i am the reason i end up where i ended up...i was at fault... this thought is a depressing one...to know i have fallen this far because of my actions and my merit, is a hard concept to swallow...

why is it that friends always bring the obvious to your attention...

so i sit here at my lonely desk, working late, with noone to talk to and let the tears roll down my face...

you cant complain if you caused the pain to yourself...

you cant be upset, if you allow people to walk over you....

you cant cry because you missed out on an opportunity because of your own actions...

i just wish i werent such a girl and cry so much...why couldn't i be this cold heartless person, who doesnt care, who doesnt wear their heart on their sleeve?? why is it that everything bothers me so much...

I was told tonight that i lacked drive???what does that mean???i have always thought i was a very hard working person, i always excel in what i do...though i dont put my work on display...i feel like it is strong enough to stand on its own...guess another thing i was wrong about...

oh well, wipe the tears away, stand back up, brush off, and give it another try...

hopefully in the next couple of days life will get better...will try and take some pics on vacation and post some of me and my self and let the rest of the world see what a fat cow i have become, and how pathetic i truly look right now...i am totally disgusted with myself ...i need to really work on that...

On a brighter note...

i took a few days off this week, without pay, so that was a little tough...but i NEEDED some time off, before i truly lose my mind.

My sister and her family, and my family are going to Pigeon Forge for a couple of days, we are leaving Wednesday night and staying until Sunday...i cant wait...hopefully we will have a great time...i LOVE the mountains, my husband on the other hand hates them, so he will grumble a lot while we are there...but i figure if Gabe, my brother in law is there, it will be a lot less, at least in front of them :) which i will try and stay as much as possible...lol...

so...here is to relaxation, letting go, and having a good time...i am hoping my pension comes before i leave, so i can have that much more fun...haha... only kidding, i am socking it in savings, i am not stupid!! at least not that stupid!!! LOL

More to come, i know i have been slack posting, trying to get better!!!

This past week is not going as great as i would like...

I have whined enough about the huge paycut i took and the steps down the corporate ladder that i have taken...but this past week has been utter HELL...

My new lead started last week, let me start by saying that from my point of view, i exceed her knowledge base, probably 2-1...i exceed her customer service skills 10-1...maybe i am biased, maybe i have a problem with authority, maybe i am bitter because i know what i am capable of and where i should be...who knows, but i have to say, it is really getting to me...you know how you try and hold things in, and they just get worse, yeah, that is where i am right now...

and to top it off, she is the must annoying, nosey person in the world...you cant have a personal conversation without her adding her two cents in...she chimes in all the time, and lord she cant tell me enough times, how SHE wants things done...do i do anything the way she likes it??? NO...yet she feels compelled to tell me her every move, like i care...she tells me personally when she takes break, lunch, walks to her car, etc...it does not affect me, why tell me, i am nothing to you... am i wrong???

Monster.com here i come if this doesnt get any better...i just cant handle knowing where i should be, and being where i am...it is a slap in the face for me...i need to be somewhere where i can show my full potention and it can be appreciated...(no jokes, i have no clue where that might be) but i have to find that place, because the ulcer is getting bigger and bigger....


UGHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Did you miss me???


Another day has passed. A friend of mine visited from Arizona this week. The whole gang went out for dinner. It was absolutely fabulous, just like old times again... My husband and two of my children joined us, so we made it a family affair..lol... a great time was had by all...though the service at our new Olive Garden..**SUCKED**..other than that, it was great.

Tonight while i sit at work for another 15 or so minutes, so bored, my oldest son is going to his first dance..AWWW!!!...it is a back to school dance, though he has been back to school for exactly a month today..My how the time passes...he is so psyched!!! he is embarrassed that his dad has to take him and his cool, yeah you know he didnt say that, mom couldnt take him...

He is at the stage now, that he thinks both of his parents are uncool, and we totally suck. What he doesnt realize is that he lives the life right now, everything his heart desires, fairly young, dare i say, i am only 28 years old and his dad is only 31, so pretty young for an 11 year old, parents, and nothing in the world to worry about...though i am afraid he is getting in to the pre-teen years, and nothing will ever do...what i would give to be young again.... i feel sooo old...lol...

Oh well, not too much else to discuss, things are going really great at work... i have actually been "noticed" by upper management, got a very nice email from senior management commenting me on my work, very very awesome, that like never happens, guess that is one of the perks of working for a small company, where there is no one to compete with, they cant help but notice...haha...

Will blog again soon!!! love you guys, miss you, tootalloo for now!!!!