IT'S OFFICIAL...
Well, i heard the official word yesterday, i did not get the position that i wanted. It is time to move onto bigger and better things, if that is at all possible. I must say, it truly hurt me. Not so much that someone got the job before i did, because the person that got it is truly talented, has a very outgoing personality, and will knock the socks off of my customers...more hurt, because i have let myself down. I don't know what i did wrong, if i did anything wrong, what i could have done differently. I guess in the end it really doesn't matter, because there is nothing i can do to change the outcome. I just wish my brain could tell my heart and my tears that...
My husband told me that crying showed a sign of weakness in the workplace, that i should not let anyone know how much it truly bothers me. I am not sure how much of this is true, but i do know one thing... i have made an ass of myself being as upset as i am.
Everything happens for a reason, change is supposed to be a good thing. So this morning, i embrace life, still a little tears, well alot of tears, and take control. I have applied for several positions, none that i am truly compassionate about, but the one that i am compassionate about is gone, for now, i have to settle. With hopes that i will learn from this experience, and come out a better person in the end.
The only bad part that truly hurts me, is in 7 days, i will no longer work with some of the most amazing people i have ever known. One moving out of state, he will truly be missed, the others are working in the line that i wanted. I do think we will remain friends through all of this, we have gone through too much together to let it go...
So, I am ready for the change and the adventures to come, just a little bitter sweet...
Well, i heard the official word yesterday, i did not get the position that i wanted. It is time to move onto bigger and better things, if that is at all possible. I must say, it truly hurt me. Not so much that someone got the job before i did, because the person that got it is truly talented, has a very outgoing personality, and will knock the socks off of my customers...more hurt, because i have let myself down. I don't know what i did wrong, if i did anything wrong, what i could have done differently. I guess in the end it really doesn't matter, because there is nothing i can do to change the outcome. I just wish my brain could tell my heart and my tears that...
My husband told me that crying showed a sign of weakness in the workplace, that i should not let anyone know how much it truly bothers me. I am not sure how much of this is true, but i do know one thing... i have made an ass of myself being as upset as i am.
Everything happens for a reason, change is supposed to be a good thing. So this morning, i embrace life, still a little tears, well alot of tears, and take control. I have applied for several positions, none that i am truly compassionate about, but the one that i am compassionate about is gone, for now, i have to settle. With hopes that i will learn from this experience, and come out a better person in the end.
The only bad part that truly hurts me, is in 7 days, i will no longer work with some of the most amazing people i have ever known. One moving out of state, he will truly be missed, the others are working in the line that i wanted. I do think we will remain friends through all of this, we have gone through too much together to let it go...
So, I am ready for the change and the adventures to come, just a little bitter sweet...
posted by smeggs5 | 8:13 AM
2 Comments:
well he might mean well but that is an awful way of showing it. you cry as much as you need to. if you need anything you know where i am.
:)
"Learn from the past, Live in the present, Look forward to the future"
:) i know that it's all easy for me to say cause i am not going thru this but i hate that this all had to happen to especially you three guys. none of you deserve what happened but you will make the most of it i know
I know the last several days have been hard for you. Please remember that your friends and co-workers care for you tremendously and want nothing but the best for you. You will rise above this and be better for it.
I promise you that if you will realize the potential you hold there will be no stopping you - and I will tell you this crying is not a sign of weakness...it is a sign you are human. So embrace your humanity and use those tears to help you realize your full potential. Don't let anyone hold you back - especially those who may act like they care for you but really only care about themselves!
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