The Thanksgiving Holiday's are now past us, i am 10 pounds heavier (being sarcastic of course) and exhausted.

We traveled to my moms and stayed for the weekend, it was a blast, though i must say, when it was time to leave, i was ready to leave. We went shopping on Friday and Saturday, and i spent way too much money, though i am almost finished Christmas shopping.

I must vent though, my sister, those who know me, know here, she just left her slacker of a man, and is a single mom, she has three bad ass kids, that absolutely drive you insane. Well, her slacker of a man, has been sending her quite a bit of child support, i know this, yet she won't tell anyone else she is getting it, so she of course she still gets the sympathy hand outs from my mom and dad, which infuriate me. She is someone who has done nothing with her life, she has never made the attempt to better herself, and has always been handed everything. My parents have given her countless cars, money, paid her bills, support her kids etc. My parents have never done this for me, i guess because i am an extremely hard working and would never settle, but this makes me angry, she will never learn how to rely on herself, if they keep doing for her. And i think what makes it worse, they sneak it to her, like no one is suppose to know, but they do it when others are around, and she spends the money then, so we know where it came from...i must say it sucks standing around watching this, but who needs them. One thing i learned in my adult life is that parents always favor a child, unfortunately, i have never been the favored one, and have always worked for what i have. Both of my parents comment on how proud they are that i am self sufficient, but who cares, for once it would be nice for someone to actually do something for me for a change...in my adult life, i am becoming extremely bitter, i guess jealous is a better word, and i should be the bigger person, but...you know me :)

The holidays are quickly approaching. Tomorrow, we venture to the in laws, then we head to my moms. I love this time of year, all of the family gets together and we have so much fun. I get to go shopping Friday and try to finish up the majority of my holiday purchases, i am so excited.

Today, another one of my good friends seperates from me. She decided to pursue other opportunities with another company. I wish her the best. It is funny how three people that were so close, and you never thought you could divide, are now completely apart, and no matter what anyone says, distance hurts friendship. I will do my part to keep it all together, i love these people like my family, and never want to live without them. Life just sometimes isnt fair. I just have to remind myself that everything happens for a reason, and this is all for the best. People are moving on to bigger and better things, and will blossom their careers, no harm in that. GOOD LUCK GUYS! I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!

Well, back to the daily grind, remember the reason for the seasons, god bless everyone, have a safe and happy holiday!!!!

Not too much going on right now. I have to admit i am an early bird, we put our Christmas tree up last weekend. Now i am cleaning things up getting ready for the family to come this weekend...we do things a little differently since i have divorced parents. The week before Thanksgiving we have Thanksgiving with my dad and do Thanksgiving with my mom on Thansgiving, Christmas we switch, the week before with mom, the day with dad...ughh! things have to be so difficult.

Well since we have our tree up, my daughter thinks she gets to sleep in the living room floor and wait on santa every night. here is a pic of her.

Things are going pretty good for now, caught up in the hustle bustle of the holiday seasons, school work and being a working mom. A bit stressful, but at the end of the day, when you are looking at the innocents of a child sleeping, it is all worth it. Children are what make the world go round!

For those who know me, i struggled two years ago to lose a lot of weight...i ended up losing like 60 pounds, great feat for me, though i had a lot more to go...

Starting off losing by counting calories, then eventually came to the mindset that eating 1200 calories did this...what will happen if i eat 800 or 700...etc...

Well, this sent my body into a tremendous amount of shock, my blood sugar bottomed out on a daily basis, i wasnt hungry, but i didnt lose any weight...

Well, followed the advise of my doctor and slowly built myself back up to normal eating habits, problem is, because i shut my metabolism down the first time, i have gained soooo much weight back...almost 20 pounds...i digress...i had a lot of stress in my life from work and home and i comfort myself with food, i guess i should work on that part first...but not enough days in my life...lol...

anyway...the ultimate reminder you have expanded, your clothes no longer fit...so you look to your spouse for some supporting words of wisdom, as i cry, my jeans no longer fit honey...my husband in all his wisdom says: "i told you that you were gaining your weight back"...not what i wanted to hear...but thanks for keeping it real...haha...

so today i start my diet back...fat free tasteless muffin for breakfast, yummy salad for lunch, soup for dinner...NO SNACKS!!!

i have to lose this and i have to lose it fast...ugh! holidays are coming, i promised my dad Christmas pictures and i am not taking a picture of myself the way i look right now...it probably isnt very nice to lie to your daddy...haha...

Just a thought...i went shopping this weekend with my sister in Hickory, NC...we were looking for winter clothes for our kids. We ran upon a store that had a great sale on bra's, my sister is a "D" cup and i am a "D" cup...can you believe, in the entire selection of cute ones, not one "D" cup...what is up with that...do they think that just because you wear that size you just want plain white, or tan or black...no i say, bring on the lace and flowers and designs, gotta feel beautiful, even if noone ever sees them...haha!! just a thougt!! sorry, probably not appropriate thought, but a thought...lol

There are the pictures we have all been waiting for...haha...dont laugh too hard...i dont know how i managed not to get any of Bryan, but i will download my camera one of these days and upload one then..there is enough to keep you occupied for now...haha

Hope you all had a great halloween, mine was great, we started the day at work with a "pot luck". Because all who knows me, knows, i hate to cook, i donated money to have food brought in, as did 75% of my co-workers...i wasnt fast enough to claim my food though, because all of the meat that was purchased, was devoured, which is okay, i am a pasta and bread kinda girl anyway, i guess that is why i have such a puffy exterior..was that a nice way to say that...haha...

Anyway, checked out of work a few minutes early to go home and get my kids ready, we had "trunk or treat" at the church, everyone decorated their trunks and gave out candy to the little ones. My kids had a blast, Michelle brought Abby along, and my sister brought her three kids, a good time was had by all. We then attempted trick or treating, you know, just to give my kids a little exposure, we generally do things with the church, so very few times have we actually been door to door...i quickly realized, we arent missing much. After a few doors the kids are whiny, everyone wants to ring the doorbells, and everyone wants to be the first one there. About 10 houses later, we gave up, packed the kids back up and headed to dinner. Abby was absolutely hilarious. She is a riot, i love her so much, such a cutey... then we headed back home, exhausted, and ready for bed. The two smaller kids went to sleep in the truck, so i had to carry them in...Once the car was emptied the kids stripped of their costumes, and everything put away...ahhh. lights out, it was time for bed, another memorable halloween...i love my kids, they make life so much fun...