HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

Here is the pumpkin me and my kids carved...it was our first, and it was very fun, we will do another one this weekend...

i did it, i finally did it... i got a new truck, well not new, but new to me... it is awesome, a 2002 Ford Expedition, Eddie Bauer, super nice, i love it...see!!!!

I made it through, all the back stabbing, all the talking behind backs, i made it through it all. I am now in my new department, have a lot of people who are not talking to me, but you know, who cares, i am where i want to be, and i will come out trimphant...

More positive posts from here on out, i am finally out of hell, and can now enjoy my career. My boss stands to be a challenge, but i love a great challenge, i think the two of us will get along great, we are both extremely focused on the same things,


Wish me luck!!

Ups and Downs and the bumpy road ahead...

Well, a lot has happened in the past several days, some good, some bad, and some that are really F$#ked up...some that really make you question who is truly your friend, and who will truly have your back, when they really should...not going to elaborate, there is no need...

Just wish me luck, for once, my brain is reacting before my emotions...and i will come out triumphant...

YEAH!!! I think something positive happened today...cannot give all the details as it is still hush hush...but...i think it is a GREAT move...i am so psyched!!

A wise man once told me, good things come to those who wait...

I got the following email from my SVP today...it was totally awesome...

You’ve impressed us all with your performance, attitude, and work ethic and I’m glad a good fit came open as soon as it did. While we’ll hate to see you go (if you do), we want you in the position within the company that best uses all your skills and rewards you both personally and financially.



So – keep me posted what you decide, if you go, make a good, smooth transition for us, please, and best of everything to you!! If I could clone you, I would!

Isnt that totally awesome!!! My prayers were finally answered...i have a lunch scheduled Monday to iron out the details, wish me luck...

Yeahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

You know...my post are way too long..i apologize!!!!:) Do you still love me????

I am soooo tired....

A friend of mine blogged the other day about their hectic schedule and it really made me think...

My husband gets so upset with me because i am tired all of the time...i was starting to think i had something medically wrong with me, because i absolutely have NO energy, but the more i think, i am just worn out...my life...

for the past three weeks we have gone out of town every weekend, leaving Friday right after work and not returning until late Sunday evening...two weeks ago we actually went on vacation for 5 days, nothing but exhaustion...

This past weekend with all the drama of my sister, and going to the beach, i absolutely could not go anymore, i demanded to come home, which is not like me, i love to travel and do fun things, but i just couldnt, i just wanted to sit in the floor and cry...lol

this morning in one of my few moments of quiet i sat down to think, what is my schedule, it is something like this...

5:30 wake up, take a shower start a load of laundry, 6:00 get my three kids out of bed, which usually consists of physically picking up, and undressing my 5 and 8 year old and placing them in the tub to get dressed, i have to practically beat my 11 year old, he is as big as me, so i cant pick him up...6:30 make sure they are dressed, fed, have all their homework and papers together for school, 6:40 walk them to the bus stop...6:50 walk back to the house, get ready, flip the load of clothes from the washer to the dryer and turn it on...7:10 walk out the door for work...8:00 arrive at work to deal with morons...1:30 lunch...i race across town half of the week to lunch with my hubby then i race back...get off at 5:00, go home, arrive at home 5:45...start homework, get settled in, start dinner, the kids go out and play until dark, we eat about 7:00...i clean while they start baths...8:00 start putting them to bed...maybe watch tv for few minutes and sneak in a load of laundry...at 8:45 start threatening to take the tv and playstation out of the boys room to get them to sleep, rock kimmy..she is five, does this end...NO!!! finally 9:30 they are all asleep, tv time for me...but i fall asleep around 10:00 usually...ughhhh!!!! i need more energy...i try to stay up later to spend quality time with my hubby, or watch tv...i used to stay up until midnight and still get all this done, now, i just cannot do it...my body will not let me...

the weekends are a joke, get up in the wee hours of the morning...clean clean clean...the kids get up at 7:30 to get ready for bowling at 10:00 we are there until 12:00 then it is family time, all day...back home late at night, more cleaning...then bed...sunday wee hours again, more cleaning, more family time...no rest...

So, i mention to my husband last night that i am exhausted and think we should stay home this weekend and rest...uh, no...we have plans...ughh!!!!

continued week...

Well i must say the week is a little better...considering...my sister is feeling a little better, after a long battle with the doctors office yesterday, today she can eat and sleep which she hasnt done since last friday...which means i can relax..it is hard work being a sister..hehe!!

Things at work are still fairly bad, still have a babysitter, who listens to every conversation i have, still underpaid, and overworked...haha..who isnt? just confirmed today that my insurance will kick in in 11-01 and i have to pay, out of pocket almost $700.00 a month..hell i would be better off making minimum wage, why can't i just make myself do that...because i know i have more potential..come on, why must i have a concious!! haha...

A funny thing happened last week, i was pulled in a conference room to be told upfront who my new manager was going to be.i am not happy about that, i worked for the person once before and lets just say, it will not be fun, but on a brighter note, i will always feel intelligent around her...haha...

well this week, i have had several of the managers come to me and tell me they suggested to the VP that i be made manager because i would be a great fit for that position...i think it is funny because i really feel like i would do a great job, and if the other managers are noticing i must be doing something right, right??? anyway, i was on a call today, and the SVP of sales introduced me as the manager of my department, i couldnt stol laughing, at the same time, thinking, as if??? LOL...funny how things work out sometime, but everything is happening for a reason, and good things have to come eventually, right??

From bad to worse...

The week from hell is over...then the weekend begins...

To begin, my sister called me at 6:00 am on Friday, she is in a lot of pain and can barely drive...i tell her to go to the emergency room and call me if she needs me...around 12:00 she calls and says they think it is her gall bladder, but she is waiting on the surgeon to come in...at 2:00 she calls and says the surgeon just came in, they are sending her in for emergency surgery because it is severely infected...she is a single mother, our mother lives several hours away...our dad is a truck driver so he was on the road. she has no one, no one to get her kids, no one to sit with her, to ask the surgeon questions etc...after a few minutes of thinking, i decide it is my duty as a sister to go and pick up her kids, take them to a babysitter, and sit with her while they prep her for surgery...probably not the smartest thing to do considering i am still in my probation period at work, but family is family, and i have to go...

i help get her kids to my step mom, who is not kid friendly but she tries and she loves them...she picks them up from school, and picks up the baby...i go to the hospital to sit with my sister...long story short, 8:30 pm i am walking out to go home, she is finally in a room and ok...mom and dad are with her, i can go home...

My husband is upset that i spent the evening there, he didnt feel i should have had to stay there all night, there was nothing i could do...take all that in, move on, go to bed...

Get up early Saturday, my kids are in a bowling league, drop them off with my husband, go to the hospital to take my sister some clothes...not 5 minutes in the room my husband is calling, complaining that i spent too much time there...ugh...say my good byes and go to the bowling alley...

After we leave there, he decides we should take the kids to the beach, i am tired, my house is a mess, but okay, lets go...ughhh!!

we did have a good time, though exhausted and spent way too much money, sunday comes, the kids are whiney, i am whiney (i know that is hard to imagine, lol) i want to go home, so my hubby huffs and puffs and we start home...finally i am home...it is 7:00, my sister calls, she over did it and is sick, she wants me to ride over...so i did...it was 11:00 when i got home, I AM SOOOO TIRED..

i want to go all week with no drama, nothing to do...i just want to relax...can that happen...

Back at work this morning, hoping for the best, expecting the worst, its definatley Monday...

check in later!!! love ya!!