Life is better now, and i made it with no Prozac..haha!!

I finally got someone to come out and fix my air, $150.00 later i have AIR, yeah, that is a great thing, especially in SC, where it is 100 degrees everyday and the heat index is miserable. The guy that fixed my air asked how we survived so long with out it, it was a miserable 86 degrees in my house, that was with three fans, and a window unit air conditioner, imagine how miserable it was before we gave in and got that!!! my response, we barely made it, and called 50 times to get someone out. I could have kissed the man when he pulled up, and the kicker, he was at my house less than 5 minutes, i suffered for 2 months and it took him 5 minutes, UGH!!!!

My car was checked out, it is not the transmission, but rather, still the infamous short, my car will go in the shop this week, when i get my long awaited money, i have made it broke for several weeks, i learned something myself, and apprecite so much more what i have.

My sister finally left her loser of a man, now she is on her own with three, i must say, bad ass kids!! it will be tough. I have spent the past several days getting her moved, and running her around town. My husband is getting a bit annoyed, but she is my sister, and me being me, i am going to help her. He will understand one day, at least i hope he will.

I finally got a job, i start 07-31...HUGE, i mean HUGE pay cut but it is a job, for now, and i can work my way back up. Things will be tight for a while, but we will manage and come back stronger than ever.

Oh yeah!! i got a gift from my old account exec friday night, you would never believe what he got me, it was awesome, he spent like $250.00 way too much for someone like me, but it is awesome!!! he paid for me to get my hair cut and colored, which is a treat for me, he paid for a balavi facial, a manicure, and a one hour massage, i absolutely cannot wait. Again, i think it annoyed my husband a bit, but...

Well sorry for so much in one post, it has been a while, will try and do better!!!

miss you guys, and love you lots, keep in touch!

Just when you thought you were at your breaking point...something else breaks???

I start off saying that these past several weeks, have been more stress than i care to handle. But with the encouragement from my dad, i know that things always work out for the better. Everytime god closes a door, he opens another one. I just have to have the knowledge and trust to open the door that god lays in front of me.

That said, i am going to have a nervous breakdown. Things were already very stressful before i lost my job. Now things have gone to bad from worse. I sit back sometimes and think, this bad joke has to end soon...if i had no bad luck, what would my life be like??

For several weeks, everything i owned has been breaking...my dryer, my water pump, my airconditioning in my house, my air in my car, there is a short in my car...bad enough, one would think...then my job is gone, no job to replace it, it just keeps getting better right????haha...Well, god love South Carolina, fire ants have somehow gotten into my house, and i have been battling them for days, spraying, and mopping, spraying and mopping..i dont like chemicals in the house because i have small kids, in the same breath, cant have ants, because i have small kids..UGH!!!...

Then i wake up this morning, and my washing machine is broken, it continuously runs water, which by the way leaks on the floor, and more mopping...haha.. no matter if it is turned off or on..

My car has another problem, tuesday, on my way to the dentist, where i was told that the root canal that i paid $800.00 in november has to come out, because there are serious infections in my mouth, and possibly a horizontal fracture to my roots, which god only knows what that is, or how serious it is, but apparently it is not common, because the endodontist my densist consulted with, wants to see it for himself??? what the heck??? my transmission no longer works in my car, well i guess it works, there is just no first gear??? so now i am stuck home, with the dilemma, do i call my mom or dad and ask to borrow their vehicles, or do i sit at home stranded with 3 kids, no air, only a window unit, the battle of the ants, the broken dryer, the half ass water pump and now the broken washing maching?? i hate to inconvenience either of them with me having one of their cars, after all it will be at least two weeks before i can afford to fix my car, because i dont have a job... and by the way, do you think my husband is trying to fix, or is in the least bit concerned about any of these problems, NO!!!! he just says, dont worry about it baby, things will be okay... HELLO, if you dont do anything, how in the hello are they going to be okay?? I NEED PROZAC!!!!

I TALK TOO MUCH!!

Life is a mystery.

My sister and her two kids came down this past weekend. We had a blast, we went bowling and to a movie with her family and my dad and stepmom, and just spent time together as a family. Something i really miss since my family never seems to have time to spend together.

Monday was back to the routine of being home with my kids. Let me start by saying, anyone that knows me, knows how much my children mean to me. However, in the same breath, anyone who knows me, knows how much i LOVE to talk, and love adult interaction. I can strike up a conversation with any stranger at any time... haha... that said, i am ready to join adult life of employment again. This past Friday, i got a call from one of my old co-workers who let me know that the company that i have been pining to work for, called her with some information. To my dismay, i had not received a call yet. So i decided to do what i had never done. Time to pimp myself out...haha...i called my old AE, who by the way is absolutely awesome, and my old boss, who is also awesome, and filled them both in. Monday morning, an email from both, with their full support, and an email from the SVP of the company that i want to work for, requesting a phone interview. I called him yesterday, and after a brief interview, was told he would send details this morning and if everything checked out, i should receive a formal offer in about 10-14 days. WOW!! i really hope this works out, and i cant imagine for the life of me why it wouldnt.

In my excitement, i look to my husband for support, and equal excitement, after all, i would join working society again, and contribute to our house again!! YEAH..you would think...i get hit with a very sarcastic, cold attitude. The kind that just makes you want to slap him..UGH..MEN!!!... well, he heard me on my interview tell the man, that i was not cut out to be a stay at home mom, and i was ready to go back to work. THIS IS THE TRUTH!! i have never been a stay at home mom, i tried it with my first son, and it lasted 4 or 5 months. I am sorry, it would be different if we had money without me working, but just getting by, is not my idea of a good life, nor, is it something i am willing to settle for. So, my much wanted excitement was not that. However, it made me realize that i have to do what is best for me and my kids, and he will have to get glad in the same pants he got mad in. Life cannot be spent pleasing other people if it is at your expense. At some point, you have to do what is right for your kids and yourself, and let the rest of the world go on as they may.

Well, after dealing with that, i went across to tell my inlaws- who greeted me with the much similar attitude of their son. Complaining about the possibility that there may be traveling, for training...and that my hours would be the same as they were with my last job, 10-7, which i didnt mind, but apparently, inconvenienced everyone else... Hello people, whatever happened to I am happy for you, if this is what you want, we will support you. After all, i did not have the kids myself, their dad had a hand in it, and it is just as much his responsibility to be there for them as it is mine. I am always there. If they have doctor appointments, i am there, if they are sick, i am there, if they have activities, i am there. Everything, everytime, no matter how hard it makes it for me, i am there. Why is it that just the mom should sacrafice??? Whatever, they are my children, and at the end of the day, they know who loves and supports them, and who would stop at nothing to ensure they have all that they deserve. and the rest, well, they can just grumble until they die!!!!

WOW...THIS IS STRANGE...

Friday was my last day at work, and not as fortunate as my other co-workers, i leave as an unemployed citizen, and let me start this by saying it sucks!! i try very hard to look at the bright side, at least i get to spend some time with my family, my kids. Then reality strikes, it's Monday morning, and for the first time in my adult life, i have no where to go, no money to have fun, and my kids are driving me crazy. My husband god help him is driving me crazy, because he cant seem to grasp the concept that we have no money because we are trying to stretch what we do have to last until my severance comes along.

In the past few days i have learned, i could NEVER be a stay at home mom. The only thing to do, is watch kid shows, clean up and referee the never ending fighting of my three children. OH THATS WHY I WENT TO WORK...for sanity..haha..

So far in 3 days, i have washed 11 loads of laundry, cleaned out the kitchen cabinets, listed things on ebay for my hubby, cleaned my kids room, and thought of a million things i could do to fix up the house, but the one kicker....money... i am scared to death to spend what we have, for fear it will take longer than expected to get a job or my severance. So for now, i sit back and clean and rearrange, and referee, and clean some more, watch more kid shows and referee some more...

HELP ME!!! I NEED TO GO TO WORK BEFORE I GO CRAZY!!!! HAHA